Well i wish i could just die i hurt Amber so bad yesturday and i can;t even forgive myself and i i wish i could but their is no forgiveness for what i did i love her to death but something i did to her in april has come back and now i just wish i could do anything to change it i shoulc just die get killed get jumped i should even have friends i don't disver to have friends i don't disver Amber She never hurt me and now i feel as if i killed her i love her somuch but i can't forgive my self and i never will i wish she could just hate me and kill me i don't disvser to have a person like her she is an angel and im im a bum who should just get shot or killed and go to hell i love her to death and now she lost all trust in me and i can't blame her i can't even trust myself i know i can't blame any one esle for what i did to her but i just wanna go back and fix allthis mess i love Amber to death i didn;t even tell all my friends about Amber and she told every one well every one i have to say something i love Amber and i know there is no forgiveing me for what i did to her but yesturday i asked Amber to mArry me and she said yes and she said she stilllove me So now i wanna marry amber and i wanna have a baby with her and i don;t care what any one says or does it my life i love her to death and i wanna marry her and i ask and she said yes so now me and amber will get marry sooner or later and i told her already we will have a baby becasue i love her and i want to have her with me for ever and i want her to be my wife till the day i die and if anyone wants to fuck me over i don't care im willing to give up things for her so Amber if ur reading this i know this is not going to change anything but amber i love you and i want you to be my wife and i want you to have my baby and Amber i under stand if u can't for give me but i love you and i will do anything for you so will u please marry me??? iu love you and im really sorry and alli can ask is for your forgiveness i love you and if u can;lt for give me i understand bye every one
Well what is their to say life still sucks i go to school every day and my life still pisses me off I have been not so good Christmas was good and all but life is just killing me I mean their nothing wrong with me but Amber's pain is just bring me down i love more then life and every thing i will do anything for her and she is just going though so much i find my self going crazy but still i keep helping her because i know i should and i don't even think im doing a good job at it. It sucks so much i can;t take it But still im not giving up on my self or on her i love her so much is not ture and i will do anything for her she is my angel and every thing no one really understands how much she mean to me it her who help my servive this long in life when i wanted to cry i thought of her and just thinking of her helped me well i really hope to god that she starts to have a better life and i don't feel so stressed out as much PLEASE GoD HELP AMBER AND MY SELF well im going thankz bye
Hey well life still is gay but hey what the hell can i do i juts found a kick ass thing anton lavey said hey kicks some what ass hes really stanic but he's kool if u ask me hey to get manson to become satanic you must be a kick ass guy well yeah i been talking to amber a lot latey well yeah im out bye<3amber<3
My worst enemies are those who presume me to be harmless. They cannot imagine how much I resent and disdain them, or just how great a threat they would face if I could get at them. Everything in their behavior speaks of insult and presumptuousness, and for now it is all I can do to make constructive use of my anger toward them. At this time, I just make a list of them and keep a watch on. Some day, with the help of time, space, and circumstance, I will be able to humiliate them properly - not in a manner they would enjoy, but in a style calculated to make them wish that they had never been born.
Hey well yeah my life still sucks school was alright i geuss i have tomorrow then i have off thursday so thats kool so yeah whats up every fucking one nothing much here im really bored well yeah im so bored their really never nothing to do any more i have some home work but thats it well im out goignt o talk to my baby bye
Well i been bored all day beside talking to my angel Amber<33 not much went on for the p[ast couple of week beside i want to the headbangers ball tour it was sick Arch enemy was sick and cradle kill so did bleeding through i went with ym boy tj it was great well i been talking to my g/f a lot i love talking to her for the past 7 months ofmy life she made my whole life great i got a new cd well my dad did but i was listing to it a lot well yeah i have off once again on thursday thank god well last week went to fast so now im stuck in that shitn hole again well yeah idk what to do i have to go through with it i geuss it sucks well later!!!!!!!
Hey whats up every one Their not much here bored i got a new cd today W.A.S.P! their a lot of shit but nothing is going on i went to the metallica show it kicked ass but sucked cuz of the sound tech music was too low Ahhhhhh godsmack kicked a lot of ass well yeah im bored and im bout to get off line and go watch tv i have off tuesday and then next week well yeah a lot of boredness going to head bangers ball tour the 4th kick ass well later
It's a knife. You use it for stabbing people. Although it might not be as pimped out and ghetto as the other weapons, it's more effective, which makes you more of a thug...I think.
hey welll i took of work sucks my feet are killing me they hurt so bad dismorning it sucked IM bored out of my mind omg i can't beleave how bored i am well yeah idk well their really nothing to talk about today im sitting home and yeah idk well im going to go talk laters ByE
You are Hitler. You are an evil mastermind, and a vegeterian and a painter. You ran the the third Reich and wrote a book about the masterrace while in prision. Well Done. Seig Heil.
wow i never update what the hell is wrong with me lol whats up every one nothing really here im bored i got to the gc cd iot fucking rocks my soxs lol jk it fucking good they got so much better in my oppion well yeah school been i drag im fucking 16 NOw yay!!!!!!!!!!!!! it kicks ass o been hanging at the mall a lot latey im not tell friday it so boring there now i have to finsh my can grand pas floor im putting down tile it sucks my uncles fu8king drunk like dick head a lot of shit happ0en with my g/f im so sad for her she in the hospital i already miss her and yes i have a g/f i been with her since april and i love her mmore then anything and im going to marry her well yeah and if u don;t know her name is amber and no not the amber who go to the mall another one well yeah im going to go now update tomorrow later player haterz!!!!!
Hey well today stinks so far it been very boring well i have to call lisa later on today to see if she wants to go to willobrook if any one going drop a comment well yeah if u have nothing to day tonight and you bored get you ass to the mall and hang with all the fooking mall rats and yeah well laters!!!!
Hey im in crapy school its boring and i wanna go home well later you all know what im doing is going to the mall like always theirs nothing wrong well yeah i been good latey well im bored i got liek 20 more min of this clas then its off to gym so yeah well yeah i got to fucking go laters
Well idk this week end sucked my cat ran away so that sucks i miss the poor thing now i feel bad and i want to see abvp kicked ass and the exorcist kicked even more ass and i hate this shit a girl knows you like them but still talks about their b/f like all the time almost god it fucking hurts assholes damn and don;t put your fucking b/f or g/f in fornt of your clostest and best friends
me : so send it in the mall brittney : ok brittney : so what u been up to? me : nothing me : you? brittney : the normal random crazy shit. its been VERY interesting lately me : lol yeah thaTS FUN me : *pokes* brittney : *poke* me : *slaps* brittney : ouch me : hahahah*STABS* me : ok fine be that way brittney : wow zoned out sorry me : lol *BAD STABS* brittney : ow me : *stab you in the heart* brittney : dead people cant talk... me : lol*bring you back to life* brittney : me : *kisses* brittney :>:D< me : >:D< me : =)) brittney : hehe me : brittney : :-> me :
music: bleeding through-love lost in a hail of gun fire
This sucks i can't go anywhere today and libby pissing me off whats new with that lying bitch What an emo bitch Emo people piss me off most of the time i know only a couple kool ones i went ot the doctors and libby should just stop lying already and shut the fuck up oh well my dad not letting me go anywhere so that sucks libby being a whore and yeah the mall was starting to suck anyway so fuck it yeah their like nothing to do i got more shit for school it sucks it starts fucking thursday this summer went so fast i tho last summer was gay but damn oh well im going to go bow bye
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Hey Whats up every one Just got back from the mall i went lisa came over and then we went there and yeah we saw barry dj pac lisa casey and olivia and some other people and then we hung out it was boring but it was better then sitting home and then the 2.5s told us to go inside or leave and then yeah we left well me lisa from wayen olivia dj and casey and pac and went to wayen hills diner and got disco fries they were like yummy or what ever and yeah and then pac drove me home and yeah i think im staying home tomorrow idk what im doing well yeah and yeah so now im home and that was my day
http://www.caleida.com/users/blessedsinner88/ this is my old journal well yeah i had a lot of friends on that thingy well Im Sinner and im some what goth/metal head if you beleave in titel and yes i can;t spell very good i wright song and what not and shit well yeah ok bye maggots
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im sorry Amber
stressed
im ok i geuss
grateful cuz i took off today
crazy
pissed off
tired